Where the hell does time go?

Once upon a time, a tiny boy was born!

I seriously don’t understand time. They say it goes by in a blink of an eye when you have children. Who ever said that wasn’t lying.

I swear the past 12 years have gone by quicker than I can remember. It makes me sad. I want to do everything to make my boys happy, and I really hope they can look back and remember a good childhood. I had several years where I was in chronic pain, and I wish I could go back and force myself to interact more. I feel like it robbed me of time with my kids.

Dylan [tiny boy from above] went to his first school dance on Friday, and while I am so proud of the young man he is, I’m not ready for him to enter his teen years. I want more kid years!

I know this is a sappy post, but getting my feelings out into the universe helps me cope. I have many regrets as a mom.

  • The terrible state of mind I was in while being a victim to chronic pain.
  • The horrible postpartum; both times.
  • The crippling anxiety that prevented me from doing fun activities.

I’m sure they are minuscule to the boys, but they will forever stay with me.

I suppose all I can do now, is to cherish and live in each moment, creating lasting, happy memories! These 3 boys have no idea how much I love them!

What are y’all interested in knowing about? Let me know!

Until next time

Bye, Felicia!



Welcome to chaos.

Hello out there, in the huge World Wide Web! If you’ve found this post, welcome! My name is Rachael. I am 32, from Texas, married and a stay at home mom to 3 boys; Dylan is 12, Brandon is almost 11, and Cooper is 2.

There’s so much I could share, and maybe I will create multiple posts introducing different parts of my life.

I wanted to create a spot where I can express myself, connect with other people, and share the ups, downs and all the sides of mom-hood. I am not a fancy, well put together mom. I’m the one looking like a hot mess, trying to chug my coffee, and rushing to get the boys dropped off on time! I curse, I drink and I probably don’t always make the wisest of decisions. If you sound like me, stick around and let’s be friends!

To finish off this first post, I’m going to answer a few questions that may help you understand me!

1. What’s something that no one would guess about you?

For people first meeting me in person, I can guarantee they will never guess that I have terrible social anxiety and I am extremely introverted.

2. If you could be doing anything, anywhere right now, what and where would it be?

If I could be doing anything right now, I would be at the beach with my family fishing. We love to take fishing trips, and once it warms up, I will definitely be sharing our outings!

3. What do you wish you had done differently in your life?

I really wish that I would have focused more on and finished college. I was side tracked after my first semester when I became pregnant with my oldest son. I never stuck to it or gave it my all. It’s an accomplishment that I hope to achieve at some point in my life!

4. What’s the most important thing to you?

Showing and surrounding my children with love. I’ve been through a lot, and I want my kids to feel like they have a great support system.

5. What’s one thing you’ve had to overcome in your life?

This will be a short answer, but can be elaborated in another post. The biggest thing I have had to overcome, is learning I cannot have any control over a loved one with addiction.

Well, that’s it for today! I hope you enjoyed my introduction and will stick around for more posts to come!

Bye, Felicia!